The Recovery System - The Outside Lyrics

I want to live on the outside, not outdoors but outside of myself
I've spent so long on the inside, where panic grows like mold on a shelf
And God, I want to let you in, and step outside of my doors
And let you work in my life the way I did before
I want to live on the outside
I want to scream till my voice is gone
Cause I'm terrified and barely holding on
I'm holding on
To you
God see me through
I want to live on the outside
Where my heart can beat for you
I want to live on a mission
Panic and fear have no place here, reprimand all the demons
Their words are lies for desperate ears
But some days I wish I'd be struck down, and get life over with
But before I die, I want to be remembered for something
For speaking life
I'm speaking life
I don't want to die by suicide
My life's still mine
My life's still mine
I want to live on the outside
I want to scream till my voice is gone
Cause I'm terrified and barely holding on
I'm holding on
To you
God see me through
I want to live on the outside
Where my heart can beat for you
My heart can beat for you
My heart still beats for you
Oh, it beats for you
Because you love, you save, and you won't let me down
You love, you save, and you won't let me down
You love, you save, and you won't let me down
You love, you save, and you won't let me down
I want to live on the outside
I want to scream till my voice is gone
Cause I'm terrified and barely holding on
I'm holding on
To you
God see me through
I want to live on the outside
I want to live on the outside