The Recovery System - Always Anxious Lyrics

How can I just relax and put the brakes on all my thoughts
To feel like nothing's wrong with me
Don't tell me something's wrong with me
Trapped in a cage and I hold the key
But I struggle to unlock the door
Can't hold steady long enough to make this work
So is this going to kill me
Or do I give up and wait to be called home
Either way, I hate to think where this is heading
I'm always anxious and afraid
So sick of being scared of me
I hate feeling confined
With my mind always fearing for my life
Every day I wish I could forget
What it's like to feel so hopeless and depressed
I will not accept a life where I can't be alive
I refuse to just roll over and die
Can't tell how long it's been
The metal stains my hands with rust
Can't seem to help but wonder
Why haven't I died yet
Is this some kind of sick joke
To keep me alive and make me wish I wasn't
Well look who's laughing now
Cause I'm getting better every day of my life
I know this isn't going to kill me
So I can't give up, pack up and go home now
Even though I hate to think where this is heading
I'm scared as hell but I'm still standing
I'm always anxious and afraid
So sick of being scared of me
I hate feeling confined
With my mind always fearing for my life
Every day I wish I could forget
What it's like to feel so hopeless and depressed
I will not accept a life where I can't be alive
I refuse to just roll over and die
I'm always anxious and afraid
So sick of being scared of me
And when it's my time, I don't want tot regret my whole life
Every day I wish I could forget
What it's like to feel so hopeless and depressed
I will not accept a life where I can't be alive
No I refuse to roll over give up and die
I will recover
And I'm going to thrive