Reckless Deriver - For So Long Lyrics

What's going on, I can't explain
Why I'm going through that thing again
Where your memory hits me like a non-stop train
That's passing through

Things didn't work out like I planned
The only part I still don't understand
Is how the flame I once held in my hand
Still burns in me for you

And for so long I've waited
As it still burns on
And all that I've determinated's that
You were the one
And that could be
The hardest thing of all
To take

In the waning of the afterzone
Tried to keep the moss off this rolling stone
While I tell myself how could I have known
The penance I would do

I'll take a lyric from the litany
Relegate the rest to history
Doesn't change how indefensibly
My heart still yearns for you

And for so long I've waited
As it still yearns on
And all that I've determinated's that
You were the one
And that could be
The hardest thing of all
To take

And for so long I've waited
As this world turns on
And all that I've determinated's that
You were the one
And that could be
The hardest thing of all