And I find the weight of the world keeps holding me back
Knocking me down
Repeating the words I could never think to say
And it's getting harder to admit I miss your voice laying next to me
It's getting harder to admit I can't do it by myself
Keep looking at my struggles as the reason you can't stay
I'll find a way to make it to tomorrow on my own
Keep picking fights, late at night, nothing I do is ever right
I'll find a way to dream of something else
I'm not myself
And I'm surrounded by constant reminders of how I f*cked up their plans
Of raising a boy who's not afraid of anything
I'm afraid to be myself