Ray Gateway - Havoc/I'm Not a Gemini Lyrics

Gotta get the good shit
Gotta smoke the strong
Only get the good shit
Only smoke the strong

Put it in my bloodstream

My heart wanted you
But my mind was blind to the fact that I've always needed my alone time
So I tried and I tried but there's havoc on my mind
So I tried and I tried but there's havoc on my mind

Flatlined he's gone home, another homie overdosed
Scripture read onto his viewing got his mama doing the most
Skinny cat named Newton Huey led the brothers with a toast
Ashes to ashes
Spaz if I'm killed in cold
Cherish all the memories
Gasp when I spill my soul

Aerosol the enemies they froze in poses like they're voguing

I light a candle for the ones that caught a handle under innocence
The havoc in these streets then turned me calculated, cold, commanding
And in a sense, I'm with the shits, but I sit back there in the cut
Can you get with this?
(Put it in my bloodstream)
Suckas wanna cluck, ecstasy and poppin pills and shit
Clearing out their bank accounts to fit into this simple shit

I said
My heart wanted you
But my mind was blind to the fact that I've always needed my alone time
So I tried and I tried but there's havoc on my mind
So I tried and I tried but there's havoc on my mind

Capture my attention
Snap me out of this
Master living paranoid but
After living free and the very soul you pride yourself
On
Crumbles to a thousand pieces
Gotta choose one

10:38
I confront my fate, I'm too tired to wait
I'm too slow to get it
I hear a tick tock
The analog clock
I may as well jump into this sea of my feelings

Who was it knocking down doors?
Who was it you couldn't ignore?

I'm not a Gemini
Within I got about
Two brain styles
One right one left
And both probably need a prayer now
In one night I could bring the whole town something that would flow tight
Something that would grow in spite
You can gulp it down like the wine and cheeses
And one that comes out when my emotions meet the seasons
Deciding branches with idealism enhances the serotonin I get when you give a second chance
To something that would grow in spite

I got these year books
With dead classmates
I skipped the page with your last name... just for the past sake
And I'm exhausted
But I lost it
When your dad said he should've called you
But he didn't wanna bother
Now your brothers on the bottle
At the bottom

Rays bend around my body and
I'm ultra then I'm violet
My good soul is searching
My good soul is sacrificing vices of my peers
To keep me wise beyond my years

Give me the dice
I roll a six, I roll a six, I roll a five
When the teachings teach you lies
Can you try to improvise?

Don't you know it's in your mind that your mind is not alive?
My other head says they all need to step aside
My lover says can we get the wine with the bubbles at the bottom so I got it,
Now we talk about politics
While sitting in the aura of each other
And it's love
But it's fresh
So we both scared to death
And my other head says
"Man f*ck that shit
I can do anything even love you when it's risky"
The other head speaks like he's peak drunk on whiskey