Every day 8 hours simmering
In a grave I call a desk
Suffering
Dying of a sickness in my head
Every night spending 6 hours
Pushing up daisy flowers
Alone horizontal lying dead
The remaining day's minutes
Spent skittering skittish
From one of my sick jokes to the next
Darkness is the color of my soul
Gloom is the color of my life
Sadness is the color of my heart
Darkness in eternal starless night
Everyone I say I care about
Every day I never think about
Checking in to see how they've been
Would it kill me to type a message up
A measly f*cking hey what's up
And click that goddamn paper airplane send
I have no beliefs spiritual
But I've known individuals
Felt like we were supposed to be friends
But I'm fourth generation rageaholic
And I act like an asshole
It's why I always drive them away in the end
Darkness is the color of my soul
Gloom is the color of my life
Sadness is the color of my heart
Darkness in eternal starless night
That guy only wants to play humpme dumpme
That lady's gone over the other side of the fence
I can't complement completely
So it's best to just delete me
That's why they always end up with someone else
Will I die in an accident
An altercation incident
Or a heart attack brought on by too much stress
Will it be ketoacidosis
Or deep veinous thrombosis
Or malignant cancer of the chest
Will I live to be seventy
Or perish a week from Wednesday
The sooner the better is best
Darkness is the color of my soul
Gloom is the color of my life
Sadness is the color of my heart
Darkness in eternal starless night
Accepting doom is preferable
To an eternal boredom insufferable
Of a hellish heaven in the blinding sun
There's no way out
No way back
To my rainy paradise
Back
Where I can be whole and thriving again
So allow a dreary madness
A bittersweet sadness
A gladness for release in the end
Darkness is the color of my soul
Gloom is the color of my life
Sadness is the color of my heart
Darkness in eternal starless night
Darkness in eternal starless night
Sadness in eternal starless night