Raisa Mulder - Longing Lyrics

I'm longing for something though I don't know what
I keep fighting and trying though I don't know what for
Like it's all wrong but I don't even know what's wrong
I'm tryna hold on though I'm not sure what I'm holding
Keep thinking I'm crazy I make everything up
It's not real though a difference is hard to make up

Oh I blame myself
It must be my fault
I should open up
Things aren't all cruel
I should live with a smile and not hide behind it
Should live open minded and not try to fight it
But that's easier said than done

It's a lonely world living in my own
I keep tryna escape this world I create
In the end it only takes me further from home
I wanna run but I'm stuck and I don't even know where
I keep trying to clear my mind
But the more I try the more I lose myself in time

Oh I blame myself
It must be my fault
I should open up
Things aren't all cruel
I should live with a smile and not hide behind it
Should live open minded and not try to fight it
But that's easier said than done

I'm longing for something and it's aching down there
I wanna return but I don't know where
Like it's all wrong but I don't even know what's wrong (Oooh)

Oh I blame myself
It must be my fault
I should open up
Things aren't all cruel
I should live with a smile and not hide behind it
Should live open minded and not try to fight it

Oh I blame myself
It must be my fault
I should open up
Things aren't all cruel
I should live with a smile and not hide behind it
Should live open minded and not try to fight it
But that's easier said than done