Rain in October - Parchment Lyrics

I lay here, I'm burning
From a fire deep inside my heart
I'm old but I'm learning
How to let go and how to restart
Am I longing for something
That I'll never find again in this life
I'm broken and brittle
I feel like a big part of me has died
Seeking a Lazarus for the heart
Assemble once again the broken parts
Hold together frail and flimsy
Finding the strength again within me
But instead laying alone in the dark
I fall in despair like my city
And everyone else around, no hope
Empty buildings retreating
Sitting alone in my empty broken home
Listening to the world outside
Living it's life with no more reason to love
A rope to either hang or to climb
Will I make it through this time or give up
A bullet for a plight
A noose another night
A pill bubbling deep inside
A wasted end to a life
A hope without a future
A scope of another torture
A dime of another dozen
An end that don't mean nothing
A cry for another awakening
A lie for another mistaken sin
A joke we are all partaking in
A happiness where I'm faking it
An enduring nightly quality
A furious grip of my reality
A serious hit of formality
An excruciating daily normality
I fall into a desperate repetition
I crawl through this shit of an existence
I kneel in the presence of this darkness
I kill any heavy leaving a life a parchment
A light turning off mind
A fight losing all it's might
A sight falling into blind
A child crying lost inside