Rae Peltier - Tired of Being Alive Lyrics

Tired of Being Alive
I wake up to sunlight dancing on the walls
Same old routine but I don't feel much at all
Drift through the motions
Talking without sound
Where do you go when you're lost but still around?
And I try to feel something, something real
But I'm just a ghost in the skin I wear
Heavy breathing, counting cracks in the ceiling
I'm here but barely there
I'm tired of being alive, but I don't wanna die
Caught between these quiet moments and this endless fight
I'm not looking for meaning, just a break from feeling
I wanna live, not just survive
But I'm tired of being alive
Staring at strangers, they all seem so complete
While I'm tangled up in ropes I can't retreat
People pass by, their laughter fades away
I'm here on the edge wishing I knew how to stay
And I try to make sense of the emptiness
But it echoes deep in my chest
Dreaming of a spark, something to mend the dark
To help me rest without regret
I'm tired of being alive, but I don't wanna die
A little lost between the noise and the silent sky
Not looking for reasons, just a moment that frees them
They're tangled thoughts that I deny
Because I'm tired of being alive
If there's a place where the way feels light
Where I breathe in the night without closing my eyes
Where hope doesn't come like a whisper of wind
I trade these heavy dreams to let something new begin
I'm tired of being alive
I'm tired of being alive, but I still wanna try
To find a space in this world where the shadows lie
I'll keep holding on, even when hope feels gone
I'm here so I'll learn how to survive
Even if I'm tired of being alive
So I keep breathing, keep trying to find
A reason to make peace with my restless mind
I'll walk this road and I'll carry the load
Even if I'm tired
I'm still alive