Rae Peltier - By Design Lyrics

By Design
I was nineteen, staring at a line
Two little stripes that rewrote time
Heart pounding, hands so cold
The weight of a future I couldn't hold
I rehearsed the words a thousand ways
But how do you tell them your plans have changed
Mama cried, and Daddy fell still
Said, "Life don't stop, even when it feels uphill"
And I was terrified, felt so small
Like I'd built my life just to watch it fall
But sometimes the fear is the start of the climb
And love finds a way in its own sweet time
Nine months passed like a whirlwind sky
Every kick, every turn made me laugh, made me cry
When the pain came, I prayed to be wrong
Sure I wasn't ready, sure I wasn't strong
The lights were bright, the hours so long
I felt like a child in a world gone wrong
Then you came screaming into my arms
And I knew right then, I'd found my calm
And I was terrified, felt so small
Like I'd built my life just to watch it fall
But sometimes the fear is the start of the climb
And love finds a way in its own sweet time
I named you Beth, it just felt right
Like the name had waited for your first light
Your tiny fingers wrapped around my hand
And I swore I'd give you all I am
The world still spins, and I'm still scared
But your smile reminds me why I'm prepared
I was terrified, felt so small
Thought I wasn't ready for it all
But you were the love I didn't know I'd find
And now I see it was all by design
Now I hold you close, sing you this song
Beth, you've made me strong all along
The road's not easy, the journey's not smooth
But every day with you is my proof
Love finds a way in its own sweet time