Rade Jz - Memories Lyrics

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What is wrong with me bro?
I don't understand like what is wrong with me?
Nah f*ck that shit I'ma keep going, I'ma keep going
It's Rade Jz in this
Back in the day I was just cramped up in a closet
Done made a long way that's something I'm definitely proud of
When I was in need I couldn't tell them what I wanted
Had to stay out the streets it took me long to find my target
From a place where people bleeding when I tell you that I mean it
Bloodshed, killings, man, all of that I seen it
Swear I don't know how I'm feeling, so much hot water I been in
That still up to this day I got way too much stuff to deal with
So many times I tried too many nights I cried
Oh I can count how many times they all left me behind
They tried to count me out the game but they gon' see me shine
It ain't no stopping me I got goals on my mind
What you know about them days that I had to maintain?
When I lied to everybody just to hide my pain
I was racked with guilt and then I drove myself insane
With hunger in my body I was too afraid to fail
And I ain't gon' lie it's a lot of tears I shed
Lot of shit got me mad I can tell I'm seeing red
Swear I keep it to myself the type of pain you'll never get
Don't wanna talk about it cuz my feelings are dead
But I can't go off track gotta stay up in my zone
Half the people that left still be blowing up my phone
I been stuck in my old ways and I'm not sure where to go
Told my mom I'm on the road don't know when I'll be home
Remember times I was up all night couldn't bring myself to fight
Did a lot of shit most of which was wrong it was justified
I was too deep in my mind
Swear I couldn't think right
I don't regret the shit I did I guess that's what helps me shine
The way I see it everybody's throwing stones at me
Hard to admit it ain't no one I wan' be closer with
Left all my problems in the past don't wanna deal with it
Can't get attached I told my girl let's get it over with
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So many times I tried too many nights I cried
Oh I can count how many times they all left me behind
They tried to count me out the game but they gon' see me shine
It ain't no stopping me I got goals on my mind