Racehorse - Attrition Lyrics

I don't know what to say to you anymore
Your look of disappointment, sharp enough to draw blood
Those faces I held so very dear
Are now just passing mentions in my ear
It's like I've sown salt into the earth

Do you believe what you're saying?
You know I could not lie to you
A zero sum game, a war of attrition
Where the only way to win is not to play

I always acted like I didn't give a f*ck
But now the act has become a habit and it's stuck
I lost a best friend, gained a lover for two months
Then turned my back on that place, and let it fall to dust
You were the best side of me

Do you believe what you're saying?
You know I could not lie to you
A zero sum game, a war of attrition
Where the only way to win is not to play

I want to take it all back
I want to make promises that I'll keep
You asked me "Do I still think about you?"
I said "Not that often; just when I breathe"