Que Fields - Why Me? Lyrics

I want to use your boat and it's the hardest thing for us to understand sometimes
Why would the one who can walk on water have any use for our boat

We grew up living off the government
We struggling
My mother did her best to pick up slack my dad left
What a loser
How could you up and leave your seed
I don't know the roots on that side, but yet I still grew to see
This is the world through the eyes of a poor black man
I'm feeling empty inside no need for a cat scan
Just take my word for it what I deliver is real
And open up the package to see what has been concealed
I remember thinking about my momma she skippin' meals
How she did this for us cuz we ain't never have much
If I bought a bag a chips then we splittin' the bag up
Stealing from the store is something that I couldn't pass up
Risking in time in juvie for this tv set
Fought tears everyday but even Jesus wept
That's when my momma said boy things would get better
Just keep your head up these days won't last forever

Why me?
I ain't seen my mother in years
Why me?
Gotta degree but have yet to find a career
Why me?
My brother's sick and mentally ill
Why me?
I love life but hate the way that I feel
Why me?

Woke up on the wrong side of the bed
Cuz ain't no money in my bank account
Tell me what else should I think about?
Coming from the gutter, not too many of us make it out
Mother still on section 8 the man she married man I used to hate
And question God like, Lord you sure that you don't make mistakes
Then take it back and apologize cuz that ain't my place
I'm sorry Christ, I'm not sayin' I'm not a Christian
It's just hard to keep repentin' everyday I'm steady wishin'
For this job and this money people treat me like a dummy
If I see a cop then I'm a victim feelin' lumpy
Like a bowl of Malt-O-Meal on Monday mornin'
I pray that you will help me Father everyday I'm yawnin'
Tired of livin' this life, I've been forced to live
I've been growin' up with pain since I was just a foster kid
But that's just one issue, most likely it's where it started
Being broke in the hood has got me feelin' broken hearted

Why me
Man, I can't seem to be happy for long
Why me
Nah, I ain't got no friends callin' my phone
Why me
Feelin' stuck with nowhere to move
Why me
If you were me then tell me what would you do
Why me

The Lord spoke to me yesterday his timing was perfect
He asked if livin' through pain to get him and was it worth it
And that simple question it got me thinkin' a lot
Cuz what I went through don't compare to neither Jesus nor Pops
They both gave sacrifices
The Father gave his son, Son gave his life
What they did for me was so priceless
How could I be so vain
Like I didn't deserve the pain
Like eternal life is something everyone just should've gained
I'm not perfect and I'll admit it it's true
Instead of asking why, I should simply be thanking you
And when the days get rough, just be happy I made it through
Relinquish this self entitlement blame first attitude
I'm only human, made in the image of God
Nothing more than your creation Lord get rid of my pride
Pump my heart with the truth and diminish the lies
See what was void in my heart is where my Lord now resides

Why me
Why me
Why me
Why me