punk'em* - cats'and'cradles::* Lyrics

Tato, I'm mortified, at the funeral service seeing aunties and uncles crying
I replay the tape in my mind, the bullet hole was bloody, under a sleeping bag in the woods we found his body lying
In a rush, we returned to his house to find a note, it's suicide, but when we processed remainder inscribed
The pieces came together, he was always at risk, inopportune became his life
How to keep a level head when your devotion failed you
Your isolation first a preference, now there's no avail to
The scenery inside your home reminds you all you failed to
Maintain all relationships, a simpler day awaits you
So when you drove to our campsite in broad day
Hunting season so the air was filled with gunshot masquerades
Placing yourself in your final resting place
I hope a second of clarity struck before you blew your uh
Alls to say, you make me worried about myself
For I see parallels between you, me, and my brother's health
Ryan let his bipolar disorder take the belt
I know it's in me, and I'm veering off into a same-y realm
Wonder if they have cats and cradles in hell
And J Cole told me all must atone to the ring of the bell
If I didn't struggle mentally, I'd still be with Shanele
I think of switching realities often, but I'll never tell
Tato, a man of few words, I need to hear directions
I'll wait for the day you decide to share with me your blessings
Do you remember me?
You tried to take my life then vanished
I ran with you for months and only you knew I was damaged
Your finger pistol to my forehead your eyes said you had it
In you to end my life if you really wanted
I watched you relapse
Refuse to watch my life that recap
I love to hear from them from time to time unless they have some feedback
I vividly remember my mind telling me to end it tonight
Moving hundred thinking of my mom and whether she would or wouldn't think to cry
I miss my rainy days and Monettra
It's harder writing verses when the truth comes out better in forms of closure
It wouldn't be this way if it wasn't for my cerebral
But the girl I'm f*cking says it's because Im a Libra
Cats-n-Cradles
Knuckles bloodied
Could have saved me if you hurried
The vision given is tempered
I slept and i don't remember anymore
Heathen
Lost my soul but i'm still breathing
You refuse to give a reason
I'm guessing guessing that I don't need you anymore
I give me to you no question
Everything that came with a smile didn't come from a blessing
Camera got my features
Watching my life through a peephole
Every time I did you wrong,
I learned from other people