Promonant - Facts Lyrics

I lost my father bout a week before my tape was done
I have some questions for you God but all i ask is one
Why did you take his life away when im his only son
My sisters need a father figure im the only one
Walk across the stage and tell lil tay tay that im there beside her
Dem got all the world around her Ken got all the world inside her
Look at my woman like shes special so i dont deny her
And in the name of Jesus Christ ill be the soul provider
My family needs me on the daily even when i struggle
I ask them for so much advice, more than i ask my mother
Cause shit is getting crazy, through all the lights and thunder
Im tryna stay above water i keep going under
Last year they put my cousin down for B&E
Same year they took my sister that was Lee the G
They say big Nutty coming home so let's just say he free
They hit his mans with 30 years and gave him no release
RIP to Sleepy Bill we gotta keep the peace
Won't catch me on a scene that ain't got shit to do with me
I talk to God from day to day like I ain't losing sleep
One day I wanna see my daddy in them Golden sheets
I tell DV to hold his head and watch for all the snakes
I live today cause see tomorrow I don't know what waits
They say they love me when they see me turn around and hate
I hope it make it to the top and that's without debate

Pressures in my mind tell me quit, while im still breathing
One day they on you quick, behind the walls they scheming
I never traded on my brothers less I had a reason
This our year this our world and this is our season

Too many times I wanted blessings had to wait my turn
Sometimes you live and then forget but gotta live and learn
I know my father watching from outside them Pearly Gates
Wonder if he can see the tears running through my face
Such a disgrace as I remember all the early days
A big family all together we one in the same
It's funny how a second waiting could cause it to change
To see my loved ones in the box I'd give up anything
Don't know what made me so heartless I used to pray for peace
And now I lay up in my bed wishing I could sleep
Them demons running cross my head I swear they torture me
I feel like dying but my spirit will not let me leave
Suicidal thoughts of giving up like I ain't did enough
Wanna f*ck the world cause life's a bitch and she not getting cuffed
Take me to the palace with my blessings fully loaded up
Forgive me for my sins Lord I know that I've been f*cking up
Losing all my faith it's getting crazy it's amazing me
My life is slowly changing its erasing I'm impatient please
Lift me out these out these chains I know they waiting to embrace a G
And G don't stand for gangsta let's just say I'm living gracefullly
The ways I used to think ain't even real I feel like standing still
F*ck it imma keep on grinding hard until I sell a mil
Do this for my mama christa Nelson and my daddy kill
Lotta niggas crazy bout this rapping shit I do for real
If you have some beef with me go head with that I strive for peace
The light is always green to destination ain't no stopping me
Just before this records done and over lemme lay a fact
RIP my daddy Killa Blak til he can say it back!