The Project - Disgrace Lyrics

Scary, docile, docile but ya act like crocodile
Messy, so wild
Leave me alone, I have nothing at all
Kill me, I'm tired
See me outside, it's been such a long time
I see the light, it's so bright I don't want to go outside
I know it's cold in my house
But that's the only place I feel safe
I know I'm a disgrace
I don't want to bring that to any other place
Before the story began, I was locked in my bed
I was stuck in my head
Until the day was dead
I looked back in regret, to the choices I had
Made turn into a game
Locked in a cage
I'm still filled with rage
I'm not done with games
I still played with rage
I have no escape
Looked inside my mind
All I could ever find
Was a sign of mine
Saying I died inside
It was a sacrifice to my life was tried
By the judge of fate, corrupt and said I'm craze
But I said I'm sane
Many said I hate
But they were all ashamed
Of the actions I've made
I was a monster in eyes
They looked so terrified
It was all in vain, how can I relate
My own trauma to the fact on the plate
That I was a psychopath who gave everyone pain
See me outside, it's been such a long time
I see the light, it's so bright I don't want to go outside
I know it's cold in my house
But that's the only place I feel safe
I know I'm a disgrace
I don't want to bring that to any other place
The moral of my story is that don't go to people
Because they are evil and will eat you or they will feed you
I'm talking from experience
If you don't believe me
Go outside then you'll realize
No one survives people
Not all are bad but just be careful
Cause next time you'll be alive then next they will beat you
Message for my past self
Don't trust anyone else before they get to see the real you