The money, the shows, the highs
I don't know why I try
It hurts so much, It hurts so much
Oh damn I miss my family
These drugs are damn deceiving
Hurt so much, it hurt so much
Get 'Em
I like feeling numb so I'm gone off these pills
I ain't feeling none was addicted to this mess
Lost my damn mind I was losing all my friends
Wasted a lot of time had to get up off my ass
Sobered up went MIA pursuing goals I'm chasing M's
Crazy beats up in my head
Don't want the fame, just trying to vent
Story time spit so unique
Only few will understand
Flow disgusting I'm the shit
Crown me king its been a min
New Vybe veteran
Shoot my shot inside of tanks
Labeled me as competition ask me if I give a shit
Don't need a belt The Peoples Champ
On the top is where I stand
Ain't nobody f*cking with you
Might as well be celibate
Disregard this demon time I pray to god to keep me straight
Fight the hunger chasing meals mills
Was use to scraping dinner plates
Back on the scene I come in peace
A shooting star no outer space
Who am I Ba Ba Bankz Up
No mistakes I been a problem
Mo money mo problems I have
I don't know why I try, it hurts so much
Oh no no I can't believe we in this shit again
I try to be sober and shit
I'm sick of lies, sick of lies
I try to look over the shit
They all in disguise so full of surprise
U wanted to ride, u lied, but why
I'm talking the wagon, the band, what side
U pick or decide the side that u sign
But too f*cking scared to admit so u hide
Can't believe I wasted time for folks that didn't bat an eye for me
Life is such a bitch and that bitch keep on coming after me
And family what family
Speaking of my family
I stay the f*ck away cause they don't act like they a family
Now who the hell am I to sit and judge another man
When I don't even have my own shit together
Please understand
That I will give my f*cking all
Even if I don't have it at all
I'm running it up no matter the cause
The bigger they are the harder they fall ugh
The money, the shows, the highs
I don't know why I try
It hurts so much, It hurts so much
Oh damn I miss my family
These drugs are damn deceiving
Hurt so much, it hurt so much
Been thru so much shit
In this life of mine
They never accept
They always press decline
Somebody always want some shit that I got
Nigga I built this shit
You wasn't around for this
Where were you when I had no place to go
Where were you
Where were you when I had lost all hope
Where were you
Where were you when everybody told me no
Where were you
Where were you when I was sinking like that boat
Where were you HUH
All this pain that's in my heart
It damn near made me lose my mind
I was so close to selling my soul
Almost gave the devil what he want
The money, the shows, the highs
I don't know why I try
It hurts so much, It hurts so much
Oh damn I miss my family
These drugs are damn deceiving
Hurt so much, it hurt so much