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Used and abuse
The shit I'm getting usto
Asked me if I love you
Said I really usto
Pop another xanny for my pain
Pop another Percy for my brain
Maybe skitsofrenic with a satanist
Tell me if you envy this
This could be the end of us
Til Death do us part
Well
At least I always tried to play the part

I'm at the park with depression on my mine
Tears in my eyes
Will I have the balls to really take my life this time
I'm sitting at a park with depression on my mine
Tears in my eyes

Sad and sadistic
You won't miss this
One last kiss on my wishlist
Then
I think about the good and the bad
Feeling like I'm Mac cuz I got it in the bag
Lookin in the mirror
Tryna understand what it's like to be a dad even tho I'm never there
Looking for the pain but it's somewhere in the air
I'm feeling really numb down here
Years fullof pain and I ain't chance down here
Foot up in a casket I been screaming for some help down here

Now
I'm at the park with depression on my mine
Tears in my eyes
Will I have the balls to really take my life this time
I'm sitting at a park with depression on my mine
Tears in my eyes
Will I really have the balls to take my life this time

Put my body in the dirt at least I'm finally giving back
Sell my soul to the devil and he try's to give it back
My heart is in her arms
And truth is Ion really want it back
Every track I write the rope is tighter on my neck
But you don't even notice that
A letter full of suicide is always on my mind
Latley shit been kill me so ima have speed it up with alla these infedamines
And f*ck you if you think I'm being selfish
If anything I'm everything but that
I'll make a rap and try to change the world through that
Take em to my past garentee they won't survive that

Now I'm at the
Park with depression on my mine
Tears in my eyes
Will I have the balls to really take my life this time
I'm sitting at a park with depression on my mine
Tears in my eyes
Will I really have the balls to take my life this time
You sit and laugh
While often times I wonder why I'm still alive
Maybe I'm just in a comma
And maybe if I kill myself I'll finally be alive
And deep inside my mind
I'm like f*ck it man it's worth a try
So when I finally die
Please don't cry
Try to understand why
I'm at the park with depression on my mine
Tears in my eyes
Will I have the balls to really take my life this time
I'm sitting at a park with depression on my mine
Tears in my eyes
Will I really have the balls to take my life this time
Will I really
Will I really have the balls to take my life this