Polaris - With Regards Lyrics

Far away, I pray this letter finds you well and safe
I hope to god I wrote it not too late
I'll never understand the things you've faced
The path you had to take
You were the parts of me I kept concealed and contained
A relic of the way you were raised
A product of rage, of passion and pain
The last one to shoulder the blame
Did you expect me to try to look you straight in the eye
And drag you back down to earth?
I watched you walk down a road I could not condone
And fell to my knees as it took you so...
Far away, I pray this letter finds you well and safe
I hope to god I wrote it not too late
I'll never understand the things you've faced
The path you had to take
Was it your choice to break the promises you made
In a voice that quaked with apprehension?
I thought I knew you, I thought you knew me too
The grave that you dug is not deep enough for two
And I don't owe shit to you
I'm running out of reasons not to keep you so...
Far away, I pray this letter finds you well and safe
I hope to god I wrote it not too late
I'll never understand the things you've faced
The path you had to take
Time won't slow
If you could see these words before you go
I swear I'll never sleep until I know
That you have finally found a place to rest
And the weight is off your chest
As you waste away
You're a ghost to me
You f*cking let me down
Why can't you let me be?
I went through hell to find a way in
But you made the bed you laid in
Convinced that no one would care
Cut every tie you could rely on
But you chose this hill to die on
And I won't follow you there
Far away, I pray this letter finds you well and safe
I hope to god I wrote it not too late
I'll never understand the things you've faced
The path you had to take
Can't you see?
(Some things cannot be concealed)
Please know I never wanted you to leave
(We will succumb to the wounds we never heal)
I'll bleed from every pore just to believe
(I hope you find a place to rest)
That you got what you sought in your last breath
Some dignity in death