Polaris - Dissipate Lyrics

I never asked for this burden
I never asked for this cross that I bear on my back
But like an ulcer scratching against my tongue
I can't leave it alone
So you can find me down at the bottom
With a stomach full of stones
I can't outrun my fate, it follows like a shadow
I put all of my faith in a saint without a halo
But I won't die pretending I'm not intending
To see this through until I too become invisible to you
So pull me under, be sure to leave no trace
Never wonder, I see it on your face
What do I have to do to demonstrate
The way it makes me feel and think?
I feel like I could f*cking suffocate
And you would barely blink
I could suffocate and you would barely blink
So I'll sink, searching for an answer
With a stomach full of stones
These thoughts are like a cancer
Growing in my bones
I've made this hell my home
Never again, sever the sin from within my soul
The darker half that makes me whole
I was only dreaming
I was never here
I was only dreaming
Of how I'll disappear
I can't outrun my fate, it follows like a shadow
I put all of my faith in a saint without a halo
But I won't die pretending I'm not intending
To see this through until I too become invisible to you
(I was only dreaming)
Invisible to you
(I was never here)
But I won't die pretending
I'm not intending to see this through
Until I too become invisible to you
I long to leave the past behind
And tear out the thorn that's in my side