PNW Jordan - December Lyrics

Having trouble knowing what to do
Everything is lose no win or lose
People say they know just how I feel
Like they done walked a mile in my shoes
I became their therapist for days
I became the one that they'd go to
Solving other problems people have
When I should work on what I'm going through
A phase of self-hatred and disgust
I almost put the mic down, gave it up
Then I wrote writers block and stopped
For a sec to think about just who I was
I just think that other people hate me
I just think too much about the buzz
I just think about when they say shit
I just think about the ones I trust
Out of everyone I know in person
There's only really a couple that I love
Family always gonna love me
All this life shit is getting tough
I just think my soul is losing something
I just think I lost all of my f*cks
I done changed throughout some years I know
People hate me that I used to grow with
All I do is sit inside and loathe
Myself for not changing by myself
For thinking that my ways are set in stone
Everyone around me getting older
Drowning in my ways its getting old
I done went through every single detail
Writing messages that don't go
I just think that people get too sick
Of me and I'd hate to bug em more
People almost walked out of the door
On me ones that I just needed most
Relying on myself gets exhausting
Can't do all of this shit on my own
I can't do all of this shit on my own