Pluto Koi - Mediocre at Best Lyrics

I can't describe it
These thoughts in my brain
I try to untie them
These knots in my way
And it's hardest to grow
When I can't seem to know
What to do
All the effort into changing
All to just stay the same
Give it time and you'll shine
So long as you push through the pain
And they say that I'll grow
Like everyone shows
But I'm not like the rest
I'm just mediocre at best
If you had told me at fifteen
That this is where I'd be
Running endlessly
Just looking for a reason
I guess it'd be hard to believe it
How I've yet to succeed at anything
And I used to dream
Fantasizing all these scenes
Of playing shows across the planet
But I guess that takes more talent
Cause I can't strum a tune on time
Or harmonize to save my life
What I'd give to have been born a prodigy
All my life
Stuck beneath these lines
Trying hard to redefine
Who I'm meant to be
But all this time I've yet to see
What I'm meant to do here
Cause nothing ever seems clear
I'm moving in paces that just keep me stuck in place
And how much longer will this take?
What's a boy to do
When I'm just made to lose
Here I am
I don't see where I fit in all this
Cause I'm far behind
And I've wasted my time
Chasing dead-end dreams and now
All my friends are ahead of me
Was I a fool
To think that I could be