Pinhead Reverie - Sailing, Failing and Pointless Flailing Lyrics

Party hard kids
My existential crisis
Waits for no man or woman who can tear me from my vices
Can't stick the landing
We've been planning this forever
Gonna wait around and count down the minutes we're together

Remember that time
I stayed at your house?
That must have been two
Years ago now
I slept downstairs that night
The creaking floorboards reminded me of a shipwreck, and I was it

I couldn't steer the ship
I was inexperienced
I couldn't steer the ship
I stayed despite the wind in
My sails. How could I fail?
No idea what I was
Doing. Leaving I felt
Was the only thing worthwhile

Oh, but how we loved the times
Oh, but how we adored the times
A couple years and some broken teeth
Nothing was ever good enough for me

Now I'm haunted by
All of the passing time
Like falling from your outstretched hand in mine
Washed up on a beach
Begging for forgiveness from anyone haunting my bedroom

The relics still exist
The future does not
The past still exists
Even though you've forgotten it
And I don't know whether you enjoyed yourself like I did
But I sure wish I was still a kid

Oh, but how we loved the times
Oh, but how we cried all the time
A couple years and some broken teeth
Nothing was ever good enough for me
Oh, how we adored the times
But hated them so much, too
A couple years and some broken dreams
Are things really as broken as they seem?

I dreamt the other night that I fell into you
And we were one for a second
Existing on two separate plains
I dreamt last night that I was done
Because nothing felt the same ever again
I hate feeling burned like I do
But I guess I fell into you
So that's on me, I guess
I fell so far because of you
And everything else surrounding you
Don't want to blame you, so forget it

I ask myself all time what I was doing
I don't really know. I don't really know
I ask myself all the time what needs doing
I don't really know. I don't really know

My cookie cutter shape is starting to form
I feel burned out, like dying. I'm not even trying anymore
Stationary not more than I've ever been
It's kind of hard to breathe, but at least I can dull the silence

I remember feeling cold as ice
I couldn't stop telling lies
I remember feeling cold as ice
I think I made you cold as ice

Party hard young adults
To stop yourselves from dying
Wait for no man or woman to tear you from your crisis
No understanding
We've been worrying forever
Gonna stick around and count down the seconds we're together

Wash it all away
(I'll be here for you)
Nothing's here to stay
(Even if you don't want me to)
Make it go away
(Now I'm leaving you)
We were made to fail
(I didn't want to)

Oh, but how we adored the times
But they're over now I guess
Oh, but how I ignored the times
Oh, how could I ignore the times?

I fell into you, you fell into me
Teenage dreams, so hard to beat
We listened closely in the back seat
And fell asleep together peacefully
These dots don't connect like we did
These memories are gone
Fragmented past the point of no return
Everything feels so drawn out

It's so fast and flipping forward
Like a flip book on repeat
I'm flipping out, it's flipping in
Can't pass out on the street

My body was your doormat, my company a crutch
I listened close to everything but not closely enough
Everything's a crying shame
Can't be the only one to blame
Now everything's a crying shame
But you still feel the same

I cant wait forever
Wait for something better
(I forgot to breathe)
I can't wait forever
Frozen by forever
(I forgot to breathe)
Wish I never met her but
She's not the problem better
(I forgot to breathe)
Feel the pain. I better
Feel the pain. I better
(I forgot to breathe)

Is it sadness or frustration?
(I shouldn't put my faith in)
The train's leaving the station
(Those phantom vibrations
Those phantom vibrations)
This time I won't miss it
We're following the same lines
(I thought we were friends)
(I thought we were friends)
(I thought we were friends)
(I thought we were)

Try harder adults
(I don't care, I don't care)
To stop yourselves from dying
The sounds inside were scaring me
(I don't care, I don't care)
They whisper. They are lying
My words melt like a hand-written letter in a tsunami
(I don't care, I don't care)
Of shit that I can't face. I don't feel angry anymore
(I don't care, I don't care)
I'm awake, I'm awake. I'm trying to keep myself awake
(Feeling fragile. Better go outside and get hurt)
I won't break. I won't break
(Things aren't getting better)

Things aren't getting better