Pinhead Reverie - Burned Lyrics

I need a holiday
I can't insist on giving up
And when I stay away
She'll be so happy that I'm gone
Sleeping the days away
Though you insist on getting up
Can't really face today
Cause I know everything sucks

It's none of my concern
All of the things that I have learned
And here I am instead
Playing with fire, getting burned
I'm in over my head
Walking around, spreading my dust
Guess here I'll stay instead
Wishing that I can be swept up

I don't know what I am doing
Don't think this was all my choosing
I just want to see how you've been
Feel like I was born to lose

Guess I'll internalize
I'm bad at verbalizing thoughts
Or I could write them down
For fear that they just might be lost
Can't help but feel left out
It's all so suffocating
But if I shout about it
Then everyone will hate me

It's none of my concern
All of the things that I have learned
And here I am instead
Playing with fire, getting burned