Alone I left into the world
Not a thought or concept of who I was
All I knew was I was going to
Finally be me
I got scooped up by the people I wanted to know
Left emotionally bruised
For something I should've known
My life up until then
Was nothing but religion
I got hurt at the hands of my own
Making decisions on my own
Not knowing who I was
It feels bad to admit it but I got hurt because of you
Alone I felt the pain of death
Making me scared again
Of living a life as the man I knew
Disapproved by you and who?
I ran to fast, into the life I wanted to know
Got meth and coke
Ruining past polyps in my nose
My life up until then
Was falling apart
I got hurt at the hands of my own
Making decisions on my own
Not knowing who I was
It feels bad to admit it but I got hurt because of you
I went into the world and I didn't know who I was, uh
Didn't have instruction on the gay community
I didn't have instruction on sexual education
I had no education past writing and art, uh, my sciences were so underdeveloped
I was scared to learn anything that wasn't the bible
And then I entered the world and knew nothing
And I was isolated by everything that wasn't jokes
That's all I ever was
That's all I ever was
I got hurt at the hands of my own
Making decisions on my own
Not knowing who I was
It feels bad to admit it but I got hurt because of you
(It feels bad to admit that it was your fault)
It feels bad to admit it but I got hurt because of you
(It feels bad to admit that it was your fault)