Dropkick Video (MV)

I hope this song finds you well
I'd try to call but see but I'm far too stoned to function
I'm sorry I've been a phantom of late
But I'm so scared of disappointing you and it's so hard to think straight

These past few years have taken their toll
I find it hard to gain control of my thoughts
And so I use anything that I can use to block them out

Because she stole my f*cking voice
And so I shot her with my silence
But then she poisoned all I had
With all these tall stories of violence
And now I've pushed away my friends
Can't help but wonder what they're thinking
It's getting hard to leave my bed

I'd put my insides out on display
But I'm a spineless f*cking coward who's got nothing to say
I'll always love you
And it's okay
But we're completely different people
And you won't understand anyway

And mum I know you pray for me
It's kinda cute that you still act like that is helping
I know you're trying
I know it hurts
But a fake man in the sky won't ever change the way my brain works

You know I still think about that night
A family swallowed whole because I picked the wrong fight
But I was only 16
I didn't have a clue
Imagine if I picked a stranger over you

I'd put my insides out on display
But I'm a spineless f*cking coward who's got nothing to say
I'll always love you
And it's okay
But we're completely different people
And you won't understand anyway

And Dad, you know I love you so
But all your rage destroyed our family
And I've inherited it from you
It's why I numb myself daily

And though I know I didn't do those things
Your face still haunts me every morning
I see you staring back at me
Raising your hand without a warning

I know I'm down and out
But I'm still here
And I'm not going anywhere

Never had a brother
Now I've got a few
And though I treat them poorly
They get me through
I watch the ghosts pack up and quietly slip in their coffins