Dear mama, I know u still listening
I can still hear ur voice in head
Telling me that storms don't last always
And how I should still give the lord my praise
Even those these days seem dark
Don't let it get 2 ur heart, cuz u know these dark clouds won't stay
Sometimes the sunshine is clouded by shade
But in the end everything will be ok
I know ur pain is gone but mine is just beginning
I try 2 hold it down but I feel myself slipping
This depression guilt from being everywhere but there when u called
Tho u knew I was off
Tryna raise my children hoping I could be everything u were 2 me, ig u made it look ez
Effortless even in intense stress
Sheltered me from trouble, all my life I just been blessed
Even when I missed steps and questioned my heart's decisions
U were right back telling me all was forgiven
Still remember u wearing my shirt 2 the mall
And being stopped by some fans like that's my dawg
I saw the pride in ur smile, like ur child did something with his life
Here's the reason 4 them sleepless nights
U saw my dreams and how I lived 2 write my way out
Day in and day out, u just let me stay out
Perfecting my skill but never did u not keep it trill
Made sure I graduated with honors
It's an honor
That I got 2 call u my mama
And everyday I still ur smile in my daughter
But tears go here
I'll let my tears go here, cuz I don't wanna cry no more
Go my finger stuck in the door
While trying not 2 let u go
I'll let my tears go here cuz I don't wanna cry no more
Got my finger stuck in the door
And I'm trying not to let u go
I feel like tears go here, 4 everything u didn't get 2 see
Tho I guess it wasn't meant 2 be
It eats at me
But I'm just tryna shine a light on what u meant 2 me
And never grow 2 be a memory
Tears go here cuzU were the truest love I've known
That's y I couldn't bare to see u in the hospital
And all the doctors that were telling u 2 fight no more
Succumb 2 pain but this life it needs ur light for sure
U fought tooth and nail 2 be here,
Heart of a soldier that's how I'll remember u dear
I still feel ur spirit as I sit here, crying in this room
Spilling crown on my new shoes
Wishing u was here 2 listen 2 my struggles
Tell u that I love u, or just hear u speak about whatever
4ever will I cherish our closeness
Hope that my son and daughter remember all of ur dopeness
I watched ur struggle while pops he hustled
2 give us the best life, made sure that we lived right
Taught ya boy 2 speak from his heart and 2 keep my mind
Open 2 the beauty of life
Even when u fell ill, still u were a guiding light
Beam shining in my core on the darkest nights
Just know I'll never be the same mama
But every time I see the sun breaking thru all the rain
I'll let tears go here
I'll let my tears go here, cuz I don't wanna cry no more
Go my finger stuck in the door
While trying not 2 let u go
I'll let my tears go here cuz I don't wanna cry no more
Got my finger stuck in the door
And I'm trying not to let u go
Just let ur tears go here