Palepaths - Undeserving Lyrics

I am barely holding on
There is no love
That can save me anymore
I'm wasting too much time
But I swear it's never what I wanted
And I've never been so desperate
To forget all my guilt that I would
Bruise myself to sleep
But I swear I'm trying
To be enough
I ignite myself
To see your eyes light up
Voices sound so incoherent
When they reach my ears
And praying to a God
To feel relent
I just want to feel whole again
My hands they shake
Violently
As I try to speak
My hands they shake
Violently
When I overthink
I am a dead weight
I am undeserving
Set adrift
I am doomed to sink
I am undeserving
Set adrift
Doomed to sink
This ill-fated path I've chosen
Has chiseled me to the bone
Set adrift
I am doomed to sink
Once again
Crawling back into the hole
I have dug
Once again
My nails are deep into the dirt
Once again
I am reminded that
I am undeserving
I am undeserving