P1Harmony - journal entry Lyrics

I've been walking on eggshells
I've been twirling around
In a little blue dress and
I keep falling down on the ground
'Cause I can't keep my balance
When the gravity's gone
If I'm completely honest
What the f*ck has been going on
I'm confused if I should be
Sorry or mad
Are things just as they should be
Or has shit hit the fan
And if you were to tell me what's going on
I wouldn't believe
Any word that comes out of your mouth 'cause
You don't deserve me
In my cool, breezy shadow
Things don't often go well
And I know it's not my fault
Although I've damned you all to hell
And now I know
That the people who want me to stay
Will just say so
'Cause I'm so tired
With dishonesty, honestly
Tell me the truth, I'll be fine
I'm confused if I should be
Sorry or mad
Are things just as they should be
Or has shit hit the fan
And if you were to tell me what's going on
Well, I wouldn't believe
A damn word that comes out of your mouth
'Cause you don't deserve
Am I too mean
Am I the cause
Is it just fate
Did I f*ck up my stars
Am I the problem
Like Taylor Swift says
Have I just masterminded all your heads
And I swore it'd be different
Swore I'd grow up
But how can I improve when
Nobody else does
Genetics, I get it
But I must confess
That it's stupid
I've ruined everything I had
And I'd blame it on you
But the evidence doesn't agree
'Cause the one thing in common is me