Lost Myself. Video (MV)

At this point it seems like I'm just singing cause I'm sad
But I hope you know, it's really never been that bad
See since you left my life, I'm better in every way
Don't know why I still miss your stupid face every f*cking day
Like what we had was special, I'm not gonna lie
But you made me feel like shit and you never even tried
So when I ran to you in grief, you just turned and ran away
I gave you my heart and you just threw it away

I must have lost myself in you
Don't know what else I can do
Needed to finally break through
So I could see just what we'd gotten into
Must have lost myself in you
Did not know what else I could do
Needed you to finally break through
So I could see, just how

And yeah you took my friends, and yeah I'm f*cking hurt
Cause I wasted those twelve months, just cause you were sure
That it would last, that it would work, we'd be 'together forever'
I know we're just sixteen, but it was still an endeavor
Made me feel invalid, like my feelings were a crime
After all we had I was a waste of your time?
The best thing you ever did for me was leave
Thought we were meant to be together, but all we were was naive

Honestly, you were my entire f*cking life
Don't know why you kept me if all I was was strife
See I found some better people, and now I'm a better person
Don't know why I held myself back just cause you were hurtin'
Damn, I really thought you were the one
Don't know how I could have ever been so dumb
Guess that shit year with you must have made me numb
I know breakups aren't a competition, but I definitely won

I must have lost myself in you
Don't know what else I can do
Needed to finally break through
So I could see just what we'd gotten into
Must have lost myself in you
Did not know what else I could do
Needed you to finally break through
So I could see, just how

I lied to myself, and you did too
I'm so f*cking happy we're finally through
I know it seems like running back is all I do
But I promise, this is me being done with you