Most of all I want to be original but that's hard when everything I do feels forced
People around me want to see me win and I thought I wanted that too
I guess the treasonist resides in places we thought we scanned through
I'm so stressed out
So stretched thin
So exhausted
Just a couple ways of describin'
How I been feelin'
I know I got God on my side but the dogs at my gates are snarlin'
Which must mean I'm going the right way and I must say
I feel it's all comin'
They say they'll hate you till they love you
Then hate you once they love you too much
What do you mean
Thought about it but I just started chasing my dream
If you don't like that
Well you can leave
Don't want no whining bout how you don't like the beat
I made 'em way I like 'em my taste my street
What do you mean
What do you mean
I See people around town that I used to know
Most of the time it's just a reminder of how I've failed to stay in touch
Which really cuts deep
I mean aren't people really just a crutch
I'm just playin I don't feel that way
At least I don't anymore
It's crazy how much you can change in a short period of time
Me three years ago would've kept the crutch line
It's all okay you'll find your way in time
I had to learn to ignore hate
And if I'm being honest I'm still a student to the proper mind state
I'm just a player in the game I don't wanna play in
A prisoner of a war that I never took part in
Stuck in a place that I don't wanna be in
Presenting to those who don't even listen
Trust trust trust
That's the game that we are playing
I ain't dealing with the fuss fuss fuss
Thought I saw it all but then I wiped away the
Dust dust dust
One two three four five six seven
Months months months
I been contemplating if I even wanna do this anymore and I decided that I
Must
Hate it they send mixed signals
Red light green light yellow light blue light
That's just too much
I'll just say you're right
Then I'll stay hushed
Then I'm outta sight
That ain't healthy right
Think I'm probably right
That ain't me though
That's the old me
I'm a new me
Not a zombie
Not like Kanye
Different mind state
What will I say
When the sky's gray
When my heads down
When they betray
When my trust sways
I will listen
And I'll love them
And forgive them
That's the right way
That's the right way
What do you mean
Thought about it but I just started chasing my dream
If you don't like that
Well you can leave
Don't want no whining bout how you don't like the beat
I made 'em way I like 'em my taste my street
What do you mean
What do you mean