Outspoken - False Monarchy Lyrics

I'm surrounded by so called friends and I still feel alone
They see me as above it all like I'm in a while different zone
This pedestal you've put my on
I'm in no way deserving of a throne
As my life is falling together my mind is falling apart
Not an easy way to maintain a healthy heart
I give you more of me and I feel less of you
Where do I go when you're my home but you're * running
Running, running, away from me
The pressure to feel to say what is real to look outside of me
And help you heal but my cracks grow more prominent every (each0 * day
Something inside my veins begins to cave
I want to stop trying to be a better me
I'm not a role model you see I'm just a broken hearted freak
The cogs inside my heart have fallen apart and I feel like I'm starting again, again, again
As my life is falling together my mind is falling apart
Not an easy way to maintain a healthy heart
I give you more of me and I feel less of you
Where do I go when you're my home but you're * running, running, running, away from me
I thought I was free
I thought I was me
Now I just want to release this beast
Pounding in my chest
Screaming in my head
Ready to pounce if I hear that name come out of your mouth again
As my life is falling together my mind is falling apart
Not an easy way to maintain a healthy heart
So I'll keep up my front
You'll see only what I want