And I've always had my doubts
But never until now
Have those thoughts pervaded
Leading me to say
Is this apostasy?
I guess it is
If you were looking
You would have found me
Believing is not something
This machine is doing
It's only questioning
Skeptical of everything
Praying and searching
Never receiving
An answer when I ask
If you're really there
Is this apostasy?
I guess it is
If you were looking
You would have found me
Oh, how absurd to think
That there are any strings
Being pulled for me
Just because I asked "God, please..."