Outside at Night - June Bugs? More Like March Bugs Lyrics

Thought it would get better
But this self-hate's a neverender
Didn't think I'd ever
Consider talking an endeavor
Putting forth some effort
To get myself together
Is something I'll put off forever

Convince myself I'm hated
A reason to stay isolated
A nuisance tolerated
So instead I'll remain separated
I'll do you all a favor
Spare you the emotional labor
Of dealing with my anxious nature

So I'll hide
Stay holed up inside
Lest I be followed by
Everybody's eyes, says my mind
So I gotta get outside
But I think I'll succumb
I'll give up
I won't try

I wanna be included
But I feel like a burden
So I guess I'll just stay home
For another night alone
I'll do you all a favor
Spare you the emotional labor
Of dealing with my anxious nature

So I'll hide
Stay holed up inside
Lest I be followed by
Everybody's eyes, says my mind
Gotta get outside
But I think I'll succumb
I'll give up
I won't try