San Salvador Video (MV)

The last year or two's been alright I guess
If you only count the people still involved in it
I've watched people come and I've watched people go
Most of it's my fault, at least that much I know

Copacetic channels for sending messages
They're being sent in order with trouble reading them
Or if they will or they won't, or they don't or they do
It doesn't mean that much to me to mean that much to you

Cause when the people I love just start disappearing
It's hard to find out just where you went wrong
If it's too late to say that I'm sorry now
Maybe I'll stop reaching out and I'll just stay down
But I'll smile and I'll laugh when I know that I can't
It's the way that I am and I wish I wasn't
Cause the people I love just start disappearing
And I can't help but think that I somehow caused that

I farmed my emotions as a stupid hobby
I wept to myself in a hotel lobby
This years been shit but it could get better
Depending on my mood, or tomorrows weather
Buy more things or feel a little less empty
Give up some dreams cause I've got plenty
Who needs hopes, dreams, or aspirations
When your whole f*cking life is a big vacation?

Welbutrin was an Uber that I didn't pay for
Taking me to places that I couldn't ignore
If I eat myself alive am I a carnivore?
Leave a letter to my family; San Salvador

Cause when the people I love just start disappearing
It's hard to find out just where you went wrong
If it's too late to say that I'm sorry now
Maybe I'll stop reaching out and I'll just stay down
But I'll smile and I'll laugh when I know that I can't
It's the way that I am and I wish I wasn't
Cause the people I love just start disappearing
And I can't help but think that I somehow caused that

That's how it starts
We go back to your house
You check the charts
And start to figure it out