A TROUBLED YOUTH Video (MV)

I fell in love with Mother Mel'
A bitch from another ditch but we separated by many moons

The Spanish letter I wrote ain't never got to her I know
Should it have done so, her and I would've tied the knot though
Bella I apologized for busting nuts on your Momma
I apologize on how I chose to retaliate with karma

But we both know you got me f*cked up
We both know your true intention was to f*ck my heart up
So actually f*ck you, I did that shit on purpose
Did it so you and yours could compare what the size of my girth is

But your Momma though, she was one of kind
But your Momma though, always kept me in check when I stepped out of line
Your Momma though, she were built like a hour glass
Your Momma though, always knew how to make a nigga nut, I swear I wouldn't last

I do think about your Momma though from time to time
Oh Bella, how I wish she was still alive
I do think about your Momma though from time to time
And honestly speaking I think it's crazy how

She left me as a troubled youth, tryna duck resorting to a fake smile
A troubled youth surrounded by sadness and f*cking grey skies
A troubled youth, haunted by thought of seeing Bella cry
A troubled youth, with mental imagery of how my dick she'd ride

A troubled youth, heavy regrets coz he f*cking soul tied
A troubled youth, living with demons buried deep inside
Was nothing but a troubled youth
She left me as a troubled youth, begging for forgiveness from the other side
She intro'd me to a world of different spoils I swear to God
Even though she treated the boy like a toy, she caught his heart
His mood was different, his mind livid, when she refused to book a room to sex him, he felt jaded and ran to Bella for conso

Mistakes he made would end Melinda's life
Not knowing that in which the bed he laid he couldn't wake up at night
He begging and pleading, but really he just sleeping and dreaming
He kicking and screaming, but really he confronting his demons

Yo brodie, wake the f*ck up brodie
You f*cking dreamin' bro
Wake the f*ck up
Wake the f*ck up bro, you dreamin' bro

How dare I, tell this motherf*cking story to y'all
How dare I shun upon Mel's life in a f*cking song
How dare I tell y'all that I'm flawed just for your applause
How dare I let y'all in my life and feelings I done caught

How dare I tell y'all I f*cked my cousin a thousand times
How dare I tell y'all that me and my moms don't get along
How dare I tell y'all I hate my pops, and I'm glad he gone
How dare I, tell y'all I hate the bitch that I'm f*cking on

How dare I, tell y'all that family don't mean shit to me
How dare I, tell y'all I f*cked on a married bitch once
How dare I tell y'all that I'm really just a broke nig'
How dare I tell y'all I struggle with bipolar

How dare I tell y'all I fell in love with a prostitute
How dare I tell y'all I hate the life that I'm living now
How dare I tell y'all my love for 'phrey was conditional
How dare I tell y'all all I think about is suicide

How dare I tell y'all I'm God's gift to f*cking mankind
But then I dirty dance with the devil and I thank him in kind
How dare I write about Moe, the mother of my child
How dare I expose parts of me burried deep inside

How dare I tell y'all I struggled with masturbation
But then my body count is prolly 480 something
How dare I tell y'all I f*cked the same bitch my uncle did
But then I had fantasies about nuttin' on my aunty tits

How dare I tell y'all the boy was sexually abused
But then he enjoyed playing with his nanny's clit after school
How dare I share dark secrets about my f*cking life
How dare I, on God how f*cking dare I

I think I really need to pray loud
Our Father who art in motherf*cking heaven
I think I really need to pray loud
Halloweth be thy motherf*cking name
I think I really need to pray loud
Thy Kingdom come, thy will be motherf*cking done
I think I really need to pray loud
On earth as it is in motherf*cking heaven

Ain't nothing in this world that's worth living for
Ain't nothing in this world that's worth dying for
Ain't nothing in this world that's worth living for
On God
Ain't nothing in this world that's worth dying for
On God