I'm not too big on parties
But my friends all make me go
To try to find a pretty girl to bring back home
But I'm a coward
And they all know
So I'll just die alone
I'll spend the night outside
I'll leave the party down the road
My friends will say they missed me
Only when it's time to go
'Cause they're all liars
And they don't think I know
So I just let it go
And then they tell me that things get better
I'll tell them it's just the weather
I don't mind if I take my time
Because truth be told, I'm doing all right
I stopped self medicating
Stopped sleeping with a light
I found myself in bed instead of on the floor at night
And I quit smoking
Because it's for the best
But I miss cigarettes
You called me up one evening
Told me to take my meds
I told you that I did
You shook your head on the other end
Because I'm a liar
And I know you know
So you stayed on the phone
And then you told me that things get better
You snapped at me when I blamed the weather
I don't mind if you say goodbye
Because it's getting late and you know better
I don't mind if you take my life
Because we both know that I'm undeserving
I don't mind if you take my life