OneDayRo - Desperate Lyrics

Now I'm too strong to be weak
Been messed up too many weeks
Emotions are at a peak
Struggling to stay on my feet
Too many nights I went sleepless
Stuck in bed, the bleakness
Of my Mind, tears falling, it's so seamless
Lips quiver, I'm left speechless
Words coming from the deepest
Dark side of my genius
It's a strength, it's a weakness
Wanna let it out, I know I'm willing
But I know one day my thought process will kill me
Those aren't words for help, it's just a feeling
Hide the shame with a smile, this is the real me
My music doesn't come from joy, rather pain
Wrote so many songs I feel literally insane
People look so close at whatever we do
Don't like what they see, comments are rude, crude, lewd
Can't feel an emotion, can't be in a mood
Judging left and right, bro I'm just a dude
That pretty soon, express how I feel
You say it's too much, I say it's too real
What's the deal

Pursuit of Happiness
I'm desperate for the love
Desperate to be good enough
Pursuit of Happiness
I'm desperate to change, my life my story
Desperate to take away the pain, I can't take this anymore see
Im in desperation phase, trying to find a better place
Pursuit of happiness, I'm just chasing better days
I'm desperate, trying to find a better place
Pursuit of happiness, I'm just chasing better days

Tired of All this pointless banter
I'm making this looking for an answer
I wish my mind had better standards
Wanna figure out how in the hell do I matter
Getting worse instead of climbing the ladder
I wanna smile, but my mental would rather
Sit here in pain, sit here in sorrow
Knowing myself it'll be the same thing tomorrow
It'll be the same thing tomorrow
I wish I could tell you that I never heard a thing
But my mind was more engaged than a couple with some rings
I wanted to be what you wanted from me, want to be the perfect human being
I want his voice, his flow, to rejoice, his glow, the joy, great shows, I hear the noise, I know
It's not my choice whether or not my career grows
I'm never trying to slow, and I'm hoping that it shows
I Wanna dance, wanna groove, take a stance, start to move
Stick to plans, and improve, take a chance, but stay true
I wish I was as good as how I dreamt I was, I'll keep working till it happen, even if never does
Have to take a step back and look at what I'm doing
Visions to change my life, but I never started moving
Unhappy so I start to ruin, any chance I have at retribution
Now I'm just making this music, hoping music is my solution

Pursuit of Happiness
I'm desperate for the love
Desperate to be good enough
Pursuit of Happiness
I'm desperate to change, my life my story
Desperate to take away the pain , I can't take this anymore see
Im in desperation phase, trying to find a better place
Pursuit of happiness, I'm just chasing better days
I'm desperate, trying to find a better place
Pursuit of happiness, I'm just chasing better days