I see the pain yo eyes
I know what you trying hide
I know that you gave up on living
I know that you wish that you'd die
Risky decisions
You think about all the children
You think about who would miss you
Crazy how people dismiss you
Crazy how simple it is, to show that with you and don't
Might leave a text or a note
You spill yo heart and they joke
Leave you out on the floor
Looking for clearance in smoke
Getting so high that you scared of what's waiting below
The ones you let closest betrayed you
You done been hit every angle you praying God send me angel
Look for the sign that there's more to this story of mine and I'm angry
If you so real then just save me
Can't understand why you made me
Lacking a purpose I'm aimless
Never content and I'm worthless
The pleasure and riches not changing these issues I'm facing
I need some help cause I'm fading away and I'm hating each day that I live with this race
Of the evil and heartless you made me apart of
I'm trying my hardest I'm weak and I'm starting to give up
Yeah
I had enough
Swear I'm done
I been in the dark for months
Maybe even years
Either way my time is up
Either way I don't see another way
All I see is pain on the paths laid
Just another grain in the vast sands that will cascade
Through the palm of yo hands to the dark places I go
I didn't want to reach this low
Now look at how far I've gone
Is too late my save my soul
(Is it too late)
Is it too late
Is too late to make this known
Am I through
Did I out grow my pain or no
Been broke down
Old frown still ain't gone from years ago
Whole world shrouded over
Just a loner
Looking for a soul to hold on to
Too alone
Way too vulnerable
Open wounds that I just lay in front of you
Gave my love to you and you ain't love me too
All you got me in and all you put me through
Earth can lose my name
(Earth can lose my name)
Let me loose from pain
God undo the chains
This a losing game
(This a losing game)
I don't need the fame
But I need a change
They can't see my flame
I can't breathe I can't
I can't even think
Am I even saved
I can't even pray
I just bleed and drain
I just feel insane
I just need to
Fall to pieces
My greatest weakness
Is me I see I can't break these demons
By myself
I yell, I scream pleading
Give me reason
Reason with me in this season
I'm professing
My depression
My obsession death can't comprehend it
I suppress my stress and my distressing
SOS my health can't help the helpless
If my time was now then I'd accept it
If I lose myself
Selfish or selfless
If I end it all
Then that's Omega
Since The End I lost
My drive to tell ya
All my cries that cried out
Christ was there when I
Dropped tears I fell
Can't hide my failures
Tried to run away but you sought me
I was lost and not in vain because it taught me
I was on the edge of offing it was often
Hard for me soften all the hate I hearkened
To yo word and broke my heart cause it was hardened
I had learned that righteousness was still an option
I observed yo light when I was in the darkness
You told me to fight for life and yeah it fought me
Call it sparring cause the battles taught me pain is all required
That's the path you laid
And that's the way you brought me
Just a grain of sand that fall into the darkness
To the darker places
Getting in is costly
Just a grain of sand that fall into the darkness
Fall into it desire
Fall into it farther
Just a grain of sand that fall into the darkness
Fall into the fire
Falling from the Father
Just a grain of sand that fall into the darkness
To the darker place I fell until you caught me
I waited patiently for the Lord
He put my feet upon a rock, and he made my steps secure
And he put a new song in my mouth, a song of praise, to my God
Many will see and put their trust in the Lord
One of the things the Lord is doing in the darkness of your life
Is fitting you to bear more fruitful witness to His mercies when you come out