Olivia O'Brien - lower Lyrics

And they say, they say that it's only up from here
But I've hit a new rock bottom every single year

I've been trying to find a reason
Not to stop myself from leaving
But life feels like one big inconvenience
Then you die anyway (ah-ah-ah)
And I've tried every medication
I've tried guided meditation
I've tried going on vacation
And I'm still sad, I'm just on the beach

And they say, they say that it's only up from here
But I've hit a new rock bottom every single year

Little do they know
I can always go lower

I want to rip the skin off my body
'Cause I hate the way it feels on me
Going through emotions like a zombie
I can't wait for the apocalypse
I know all my friends are getting scared now
'Cause I can't seem to find a way out
My therapist is asking me to hang out
I just might take her up on it

And they say, they say that it's only up from here
But I've hit a new rock bottom every single year

Little do they know
I can always go lower

I keep trying to kill myself
But I keep waking up
I write my letters, take my pills
I guess I never take enough
They say the only way is up
But the ground keeps getting closer
They say it'll go by quick but
It keeps on getting slower
I can always go lower