Old Wire - Lost in This Life Lyrics

Here I am again, wasting time
On a treadmill to nowhere, just trying to survive
I thought when I got older, something would come to me
I waited to long and I got lost in my dreams

Spent my whole life running from town to town
With a suitcase full of memories and the sadness of a circus clown
It hurts to look back but lately it's been on my mind
All those nights spent in sorrow and the day that you died

I'm lost in this life, cast out to sea in the eye of a hurricane
I'm lost in this life, hell hound riding shotgun in a broke down limousine

I just keep wondering about that old willow tree
Is it still up on the hill, cool wind blowing through the leaves
I just keep moving and someday maybe
I'll get past all this worrying and the promises I couldn't keep

There's a storm on the horizon, there's a fog around my brain
Overshadows everything till nothing else remains
I'm so sick of being helpless, I've grown numb to being alone
In this self imposed exile, a grain of sand among stones

I'm lost in this life, a madman lost in an alley no idea what is real
I'm lost in this life, an old gambling man on a steamboat who's made his last deal