ok not ok - can't help but wonder v5 Lyrics

I swear that there is concrete
It's laying on top of me
And crushing me as I grab the air
It feels like I cannot breathe
And I sweat as I start to think
Of you and him without me there

You tell me you hate him
That it meant nothin
But I can't help but wonder
No I can't help but wonder
You say that you need me
You promise it's over
But I can't help but wonder

I swear I want to believe
Every single word your sayin
But all I see is this red flag
My bones scream to leave you
My chest doesn't want to
But this image of you just keeps coming back

You tell me you hate him
That it meant nothin
But I can't help but wonder
No I can't help but wonder
You say that you need me
You promise it's over
But I can't help but wonder if

Maybe you still think of him
As you're laying right next to me
Maybe I could never kiss the way he could
But if you wanted to be with him
You wouldn't be next to me
So maybe I need to finally let this
Go

You tell me you hate him
That it meant nothin
But I can't help but wonder
No I can't help but wonder
You say that you need me
You promise it's over
But I can't help but wonder if

He was better than me
If he was better than me