OhSoVisionary - 51fifty Lyrics

Sometimes I don't know
What I'ma do

Lookin in the mirror
Just tryin find the truth

Running from my past
Tryin catch up to you

These demons finna kill me
But you said i can't lose

Lookin up to god
But to me he's not true

Light said I gotchu
But the darkness been had me

But ironically
The dark is where I'm happy at

You can catch me in the back
With the demons goin crazy

Since the doctors drugged me up
I ain't been the same me

Used to be at martinez
Askin mom why

What the f*ck did I do wrong
Cause I don't wanna be here

In the 4th grade
I tried to take my own life

Really sick of livin
I be cryin at night

But you wouldn't know
Cause I be laughin all the time

Everywhere I go
I keep a positive vibe, yeah

Keep a positive vibe
Yeah

51/50 its an emergency oh
51/50 its an emergency oh

Call 911
I think she gone kill herself
Call 911
I think she gone kill herself

51/50 its an emergency oh
51/50 its an emergency oh

Call 911
I think she gone kill herself
Call 911
I think she gone kill herself

I see why they don't give me weapons
All my friends know I be stressin

Lookin all these pills
Got to erase the feels

But what if you die
F*ck it bitch I just die

I'm tired of livin a lie
I'm sick of runnin inside

It's fine you mothaf*ckaz
Hear what the f*ck I go thru

Shit might sound new
But to me it's old news

You ever feel so numb
To the point it feel like nothin

And you backed against the wall
Now you huffin & puffin

Well imagine how I feel
Cause that's been me my whole life

Sittin up in solitary
Can't get shit right

Doctors hand me all these pills
But I'm feelin lifeless

Got me feelin like a zombie
Where's the f*ckin emotion

You probably sittin there
Like what the f*ck she gotta be jokin

Breezy goin real crazy
What the f*ck she been smokin

Ain't you peep tho
Breezy never show her emotion

My nigga dead inside
Yet she always in motion