Uncontrollable
I still remember when we met like it was yesterday
A long road to go until the damage was done
I could have never harmed you
We held this as sacred, a higher power made us choose
How could you turn so bitter?
How could I fall so weak?
Why have I been so weak, so weak and powerless?
I am aware of the scars
I should have realized the storm from afar
And you cut my rope while I'm falling from the edge
You let me run dry and I'm trippin' on a high ledge
No apologies could make this undone
It is still uncontrollable
In hindsight, I get lost in old patterns
Need to overpower all of my habits
Bitch
Relieved this doesn't matter anymore
You didn't wage a battle
It grew into a war
And you cut my rope while I'm falling from the edge
You let me run dry and I'm trippin' on a high ledge
I'm wasted, feel needless, but this can never be forgotten
It's so true what they said
I learned my lesson, but I lost control
You took the years with you
I will never get them back
Reviving us in my mind
I lose track, you make me sick
The devil on my shoulder
Its voice reminds me of your cheap talks
Like a call of the sirens
No move was ever right
No step I ever walked
When I see your face
I'm choking on my words
I come to realize
I can't express my hurt
When I see your face
I'm choking on my words
Turn numb, feel paralyzed
You can't revoke this hurt
A surface of ice close to breaking
The cracks in me
It's over
Misconceived you as my shelter
I was never enough, it was poisonous
Getting rid of what doomed me
You're a stranger to me
Down below, you're trapped
Cause you're just second best
And you cut my rope while I'm falling from the edge
You let me run dry and I'm trippin' on a high ledge
I'm wasted, feel needless, but this can never be forgotten
It's so true what they said
I learned my lesson, but I lost control