Od - Suicide Notes Lyrics

Looks like I'm right back where I started from enough is enough
I can't take it no more I feel it all building up
Used to care so much then I stopped giving a f*ck
Now I just love hate and hate love (I swear)
Death is so beautiful life is so ugly
Why are we even here can anyone tell me
I didn't think so to understand me you'll have to listen close
These are my suicide notes...

Oujia board in a forgotten cemetery with a severed priest head
Hoot of an owl howl of a wolf and whispering thoughts of the dead
Crooked crucifix on the chapel on top of the hill
Fear is something I do not know and never will
Pentagram drawn in blood of the innocence with candles burning at each point
Why turn and run to hide from your demons when you can join
F*ck society and how they live because see thats just it
They don't live these words don't twist
So don't assume I'm bashing your lord I'm not go ahead and worship
Jesus had no parts in writing the Bible all your minds have been extorted
Your son and pastor at the church after hours bonding?
Least thats what you thought whole time he was being fondled
Whats left whats next bullet to my temple to ease the pain
Or a quick cut with a sharp blade to my wrist vain
We've all tied the nuse tight around the rafters
So lets kick out the chair from under us all and see what happens
Here we go again

Looks like I'm right back where I started from enough is enough
I can't take it no more I feel it all building up
Used to care so much then I stopped giving a f*ck
Now I just love hate and hate love (I swear)
Death is so beautiful life is so ugly
Why are we even here can anyone tell me
I didn't think so to understand me you'll have to listen close
These are my suicide notes...

No I'm not satanic I know that first verse probably f*cked your head up
Lyrics deep as an abyss anyone thinking they can withstand them gets crushed
Only proving a point were all killing ourselves slowly inside
No need to deny lying weakens your heart and your pride
Im just creeping in with soft steps then hauling out in long strides
When your mails full they'll come knocking find you rotten
Then date it back to find the exact day you died
It was the wrong one look what you made me do
Hospital room looks like a vegetable stand turned your family into produce
Bitch I grind hard no excuse y'all just doing what y'all can while I'm doing what I do
Only die for a few when I go I want to be raised above so I still have a view
Won't rest even in death ill carry on through my family and set
Until then I shall protect and stay a few steps ahead
But I will not work til im 60 just to pay rent and end up in debt
Have all my worse memories be the main ones that I can't forget
Eating myself away from the inside out dying to make a sound
But I've bottled it up for too long I've already drowned
Here we go again

Looks like I'm right back where I started from enough is enough
I can't take it no more I feel it all building up
Used to care so much then I stopped giving a f*ck
Now I just love hate and hate love (I swear)
Death is so beautiful life is so ugly
Why are we even here can anyone tell me
I didn't think so to understand me you'll have to listen close
These are my suicide notes...