October Evans - Until Now (Demo) Lyrics

Until now...
I've been lost searching for answers
Sleepless with eyes wide open
I never knew peace until I found myself here again
Until now...

I've been drifting away on icy seas
Never found hope on these lonely streets
Mistakes I made as I kept falling apart
Words I've said I meant from the heart
It was all gone until now...

There's a light blinding me in my sleep
Restless nights in hotel rooms crying
Left on a train to Brattleboro
Never knew the meaning of home
I was too far gone until now...

Supposed to be left for dead
Lost in bottles of beer and pills
All the winters spent alone inside my head
No silence from my Post Traumatic Devils
Thought I was forever lost until now...

I finally unzipped out of this shell
I escaped this transphobic hell
Ohhh
Ohhh
Ohhh
So comfortable in my transgender skin
I wasn't okay until I became a woman