'94 Video (MV)

When I was growing up I only thought of being older
I was born to be braver than this
I was just a kid when you were still learning from your mistakes
I was born to be better than this
I was bred in developing neighborhoods in '94
I tried to lure you away from your old habits
But I can't do this anymore

There's not much more that I can do for you
November 29th, 2002
We stripped you from your halo and clipped your wings
Lost my holy ghost in the spring
And I know you were there looking down at me
In despair

Thought I got rid of you
When I was digging through all of my vices
The indecisiveness of letting you go
But you died when I was seven
They told me you went to heaven
But then why did my father cry?
I only saw an empty body
I never saw a fleeing ghost

And yet we mourn for this to go
We mourn for this to go
We mourn for this feeling to go away
We mourn for this to go

I remember thinking that you and I were gonna be forever
(Lost my holy ghost in the spring)
I remember thinking that you were gonna make me better
I remember thinking the medicine was gonna make me better
(Lost my holy ghost in the spring)
Now I realize that you were the only thing that ever helped