Nostau - tinnitus Lyrics

This silence be deafening
I feel like a lesser me
I say "if it's meant to be, then eventually"
This silence depressing
Claimin' I'll never leave
I say "she my destiny", but lately I cannot see it, 'cuz
This tension's so thick, no knife could cut it, yeah
And baby we got no time or budgets
I get it so good, so why am I fumblin' now?
But I'm a lowlife, say "f*ck it"
They tell me just dive in head first
They tell me just look right inwards
Found myself in the middle of the seas
After all they did for me
Lemme feel, I'm a little bit tipsy
I just feel like something has been missing
So much to do and so little time
But I, hold onto you as long as we vibe, cuz

If you fall, I'm behind you
If you're lost, I can guide you
When you're lone, I'm beside you
But since you're gone

I be so good at ruinin', so good at losin' it
All the "would's" and "shoulda did's" but I still do my best
Good at ruinin, so good at stupid shit
Everybody be my dawgs but are they really friends?
And I'm back to square one yet again, yeah
Just singin' these songs cuz I'm stressed
And I know that we will never be them, but
I'm just looking for someone 'til the end, but
I cannot run from what I wish that I had undone
Look what I've come from, still questioning "what's love"
I've had enough of instincts sayin' "f*ck trust"
I've had enough of the efforts to discuss us
They all fall on deaf ears, no sound
And what I got here's all doubts
These emotions, I can not talk down
Hopin' that you might call out

"If you fall, I'm behind you"
"If you're lost, I can guide you"
"When you're lone, I'm beside you"
"I won't go, what can I do?"

Do-do do do, do-do
Do-do do do, do-do
Do-do do do, do-do
Do-do do do, do-do
Do-do do-do-do, do-do
Do-do do-do-do, do-do
Do-do do-do-do, do-do, do

Honestly, I cannot leave these images
Honestly, I make believe in infinite
From all the years I really thought I'd never live
And these scars keep the evidence
I may've changed but have I really grown?
Do I really know? this a slippery slope
Walkin' tippy toed, aye
Mi visio, I be missin' mo' than just the love
Disconnected but we send these signals, aye
"Have you even picked up the pieces of broken mirrors you pierce?"
"Your reflection is evil"
"Have you ever seen all the reasons why all these people be leavin'?"
"That affection deceitful"
Givin' up peace for a piece of yours
Blurrin the seams between deep amor
And feelin' like we should just cease for sure, so
Followers, please, leave me, I'm gone