Nostau - Open My Eyes Lyrics

I wanted this song to be positive
I keep having my thoughts I cannot soften em
Worrying future and stuck in the opposite
I just isolate myself in my rocket ship
With no confidence it's kinda hard to see the light in the darkness, God I am sorry bitch
I take my mistakes brew em and bottle em up in my conscious, but I cannot swallow it
They say that love starts at yourself
But I care for you more than anything else
I'm stuck in a hole, and yeah I need some help
My homies don't know me, God I just want out
Blast off like I lit a fuse
My guard's up and little screwed
Recent events, like I'm in a loop
Feeling stuck behind bars, I'ma spit a few
Exposed all my thoughts on the snap
Public indecency is what I call that
I heard all they words and they are all facts
Got nowhere to go, I am lost on the map
Lost in the world, I got nowhere to be
Step in my mind and go there with me
I got trust issues, yo ass'll see
Spiraling down both us, haven't we?
It's like I'm always being watched
Cant relax, it won't cease or stop
I keep asking for change, I've been praying to god
But beggars can't choose what they want
Sleepless nights with tears in my eyes
Look in the sky and I keep vilifying
Open my eyes, I don't see cuz' I'm blind
Open em wide, try to lead a new life