Nolan Fae - Boyish Lyrics

I lost my job
I miss it, but I'm not dead yet
I thought I was robbed
I wonder if hell is next
Yet now I find it comedic
How everything was you
The frier, the freezer
The semi-fractal view
Of this place
The boyish revolution
I'm lost again
Reverting to my old illusion
All I wanna see
Is a portal
A message, a dream
Me immortal
A castle for you, for me
For anybody
All I wanna be
Is normal
Boyish, cruel
You want me to be true
As long as I hit the mark
Of masculine and you
'Cause nothing's better than a boy
Who tells her that she's pretty
'Cause even if I don't like her
You need me to love her body
All I wanna see
Is a portal
A message, a dream
Me immortal
A castle for you, for me
For anybody
All I wanna be
Is normal
Am I supposed to live inside a burning choked-up lie?
Do I
Just die?
When we were kids
The muddy hands
And boyish stance and straightest glance
Was I even alive?
'Cause all I wanna see
Is a portal
A planet, a dream
Where I can be normal